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From: "Marcelo A. C. Santos"
To:
"Peter-R. Koenig" koenig @ cyberlink.ch Subject: cleaning the strangest things
Date:
Thu, 22 Jan 1998 Dear
friend: Do
what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. I am
feeling a little bit strange tonight. I
woke up this morning and read your message. It was right there like always, for your attention never fails. You
know, Peter, all those people making money out of the good will and faith of
the others... Sometimes those ''others'' are there just for a ride;
sometimes they are there because they ain't got anything else to hold on to;
sometimes they are there only because they are stupid enough to believe that it
alone will bring them salvation; sometimes they are there because it is the
only place where they can talk and feel alive; sometimes they are there because
it is their heart that does't stop pointing them this way. I don't care about
their innermost reasons. Those do not belong to me. However,
when I remember the so many times that I have been deceived and the many times
when I've found out there was nothing there but lies, then I do care about them,
as much as I do care about every single person in my circle. When
I was an active member of the FRA, I used to be Alair's favorite student [Alair
Pereira, F.R.A.]. That attracted the attention of the ''old'' members.
They were always congratulating me on my ''spiritual growth''; I was
given an important office in spite of my degree, and my ego was getting bigger
every day. I could read the others' mind and I could feel their real
intentions, but I could not believe that ''spiritual brothers'' could be
somehow sly. One
day, after the Congregation Ritual, I went back home and, before I felt asleep,
I had a vision. In that vision, I was within the Temple, and there was nobody
else there. Suddenly, a kind of ghost came forth and said: ''Do you think
you are anything more than the others? Do you think the Masters are happy with
your work? Do you really believe in everything they tell you? So listen: you
are just a piece of shit; this Masters thing is a trick and what they told you
were but lies. However, this people NEED lies, and WE are to give'em lies, for
in this lies they feed their hope. A world without hope would be even worse
than this world already is, believe me...''. The vision's vanished and
gone, and I have never been the same. I lost my belief in Magic, I lost my
belief in Eternity, I lost my belief in God. I was 21. Then
came Thelema. I had already heard of Crowley, but the FRA people told me he was
an evil black sex magician, and that I should not think of learning his
teachings. But, after that vision, nothing else seemed to be really scaring. I
decided to study Crowley's. Of
course, I got scared after the first reading of Liber AL! After a while, I
found out that AL was bringing me back that Vision, but at that time I was
seeing from a different standing point. And from that point I found Magic,
Eternity and God again. That
is why once I told you that I don't care if it was Crowley or Aiwass or The
Green Beatle who wrote AL. It suited my thoughts and that's ok. I am not a
fanatic for Crowley, for I have learnt to be my own guide, in the limits of the
good sense. And
that's why I told you that, out of the historical context (which I consider
VERY important though), I don't give a damn about ''who is who''. I know
that the most of the occult, spiritual and mistical leaders are liers.
Sometimes, their heart is good, but they fall in the illusion of their grades,
offices and degrees. Maybe I am judging wrong, but it seems to me that, by
taking the Oath of the Abyss and acting like the top authority in the Universe,
Frater AZT [Euclydes Lacerda, Motta's S.O.T.O.] shows his failure in the
illusion of the Grade. Of course, he was the one who told HB [Hymenaeus Beta =
William Breeze] about our correspondence. The other day, he issued a document
full of lies about me and some of my friends. Maybe it is unbearable for him to
see me following my own way. But I DO understand him, although I do not agree
with him. It also seems very clear to me that Sebastião's behavior [Sebastião
Carvalho, F.R.A, M.M.] , asking you for degrees and charters, shows a different
symptom of the same sickness. The exemples you gave me are the evidence that it
happens everywhere around the World. Those
are the persons who are guiding people thru the paths of initiation! Those are
the persons who tell you ''slain thy ego!''. However, the avarege people
NEED them. And, in spite of it all, Sebastião and Euclydes do believe in their
roles as the bearers of messages from the Secret Chiefs. Their hearts are good. It
is very much different from those guys who fraudulently and deliberately plan
to make money out of the lies they set upon sacred things. They objectively
profane the sense of holyness of the others, which is so much subjective and,
in the most of the cases, connected to the whole life of the seeker; thus even ''holier''
than they will ever think. You
may say I am acting like I thought that my truth was ''higher'' than the
others', and like my ''understanding'' was better than theirs. No,
Peter, I don't think so. But, in another sense, I am telling you that I agree
with E. Howe, when he tells you: Don't trust an occultist. It is sad, very sad,
but it is true. AZT: According
to Carlos Raposo [Caliphat] and Marisol Seabra, he joined the OTO
expecting to receive the IX° and to be acclaimed Brazilian's X°. However,
when Lon DuQuette [Caliphat] came to Rio in order to perform the first
set of initiations in Brazil, AZT had a heart attack on the very occasion that
he met Lon. So, we had to initiate him only on the Minerval [0°], in a temple
we set up at his home, where he was recovering from the infartation. Still
according to Carlos and Marisol, he asked Lon for the IX°, but instead of
receiving it, he was advised to prepare a written paper, and submit it to
someone else or to a counsel (I can't remember very well). Our
friends told me that after that, AZT gave up the idea of getting hold of an
immediate IX° or X°, and asked for a charter to open his own Camp. HB sent him
the charter. A
little time before, AZT recognized [Martin] Starr as having an A...A...
Grade equal to his one, and took Starr for his fellow. However,
right after you sent him some stuff (which I have never seen), I was told by
Carlos that AZT took the Oath of the Abyss, sent the OTO charter back to HB,
sent Starr to hell and started making noise, saying that I and the other
brethren were converted into soldiers of the black lodge and other nonsenses,
like HE being the true OHO [Outer Head of the Order] etc... To:
"Peter-R. Koenig" Subject:
Oui, oublié Date:
Sun, 25 Apr 1999 My
days in Texas [then Headquarter of the Caliphate]: I
spent 10 days in Austin. Did not go out a single night, since Breeze forbade
the OTO members to take me out (it is not a joke). To be honest, I only did
some shopping one afternoon, and visited a city at the Mexican border on
another day. I
stayed at a sister’s house, a very kind person who’s got a very sweet daughter. I
had dinner at Breeze’s house (better: his mansion), and found out it was the
OTO that pays his comforts. Yes, it is all paid with the Order’s money. He
repeated a thousand times that the US OTO is the one and only worthy
Order in the World. He also told me OTO would not promote through the
invitational degrees those members who had anything to do with organizations like
the OS [Ordo Saturni] or OB [Ordo Baphometi, Walter Jantschik]. Bla-bla-bla-bla... To sum it up, I found out
that, while I was turning myself inside out in order to keep the Oasis alive in
Brasil, the Most Holy King was living in a mansion that I was paying,
and neither a single cent from my dues or the copyrights was invested in the
members’ welfare. I did not see any serious lodge working, although the mass
was performed very sensually. I did not see anything that could justify the
value of dues and the receipt of copyrights. Yes, you were right: the Caliphate
is but a firm or club. There’s no fraternity nor spirituality nor magick there. As I
had to stay at home, I really meditated. My mind was changing, but I still refused to see the
clear sky above me. But
in the night I passed through Ritual DCLXXI (Throa), I simply found out I could
not keep on hiding me from myself! Suddenly, I was in front of a mirror, and
somebody asked me who art thou? In a
flash, I remembered you, Euclydes, Paula [his wife], my son and everybody else
that were trying to make me see how silly I was being to that day. I could not
keep on pretending my heart was made out of steel anymore. Why on earth should
I keep my affiliation in an organization that gives me nothing but meaningless
titles and lots of trouble? Why should I keep working for a system that does
not correspond to my quest? Why did I put myself in a situation that was
keeping me distant from my ideals and from those who care about me, and even
though I insisted in pretending it was really important in my life? And why,
after all, was I assisting that organization and spreading its lies? Why was I
lying to myself and to everybody else? Why was I denying the freedom of speech
to my real brethren? Why was I playing the game of the owners of the truth?
Why was I turning myself into an owner of the truth? You
know, I have a million defects. But, the most horrible of all was that I could
not accept my oh so many mistakes... But I finally perceived I was a worm and a
god... most of all: with or without those funny titles and people around
telling me how important you are, oh master, I am under the shadow of
the wings! Yes,
in a society full of competition and frustration, there is some comfort in
entering a temple dressed in a majestic garment, and having people to believe
you are oh so special. But it is just an illusion that may become an
addiction, for soon you will step on the real world again, and will be hunger
for some release from more self-deceit. I
came back to Rio with the idea of quitting the Caliphate as soon as the new
Oasis Master and FSR, Soror Shaitara, was installed. This I told to Breeze, a
week before flying to São Paulo in order to administer my last initiations for
OTO (the brethren from São Paulo did not want soror Shaitara to do the
initiations, because she overcharged their fees and dues). When I got there, I
received a message from him, revoking my charter. My response to him follows
below. Well,
that’s it. Threats:
Breeze did so in his last email: "I
have had many confusing and unsetting reports, including remarks attributed to
you that were hostile and even legally defamatory to OTO. As you plan to resign
there is little point in airing and resolving them. In fairness to you I plan
to forget them, and unless I hear that they continue will take no action" (email dated 20.02.99) His
representative, Shoror Shaitara (Marisol Seabra, Carlos Raposo’s wife), told a
fiend of mine that the Caliphate would sue me. Of course, she expected him to
make me aware of that, so that I should stop writing. In
vain! Follows
my last letter to Breeze: 22.04.99
e.v. Care Frater: Faze o que tu queres
será o todo da Lei. Thank
you for yours of March 17, which released me from any potential drop of regret.
So mote it be, forever and ever, Amen! Now,
read it without prejudice. We are brothers in the A...A...,
and you are witness of all I did in order to have you calling me a brother. I
will be sincere and maybe I’ll sound harsh. Take your Crown off, or stop
reading now for the sake of our fraternal relationship. First,
were not my intentions honest, I’d have gone to Hawaii instead of Texas. But,
for me, Beauty was in Austin, because I knew I would see Sisters and Brothers
smiling and feasting, and I knew their hearts would be happy with the presence
of a distant brother among them. Most of all, I knew I would find a piece of my
True Will there. Now, I don’t care whether we are in the same boat or not, as long as we are sailing on the same river. We are thelemites, after all. If we fight, let’s do it like brothers. It is not the thelemite that I fight, it is not the person, for I respect the first and I empathise with the second. But I won’t tolerate attitudes that hurt my brothers, Liber OZ or Liber AL. And you and Marisol choose to take those attitudes, making transparent that the Caliphate OTO is but an organisational institution in which pride and power speak too much loud for my weary ears. Words are in vain, my brother, when deeds show the real nature of the masquerade intention. You
are very contradictory while trying to teach me lessons that I’ve already
learnt. And you are not sincere while trying to make me feel comfortable enough
to stop arguing about the legitimacy of the Caliphate’s claims as to being a
fraternal and magical organisation. You
say: "The real test of fraternity is the ability of members to work
together to accomplish something greater of themselves, for other people,
putting aside their prejudices and sometimes even their pride and personal ambition". So,
it’s time to remember my last letter: "I’ll keep my promise of doing
about 25 initiations in São Paulo and helping Sol no Sul with the III°, as the
last proof of my love for the Order and respect to my sisters and brothers.
After that, I’ll quit the OTO". There’s neither a trace of prejudice
nor of pride and personal ambition therein. But, yes, there’s a lot of
of fraternity. And
it’s time to remember you, the Frater Superior of the Caliphate OTO, that I
gave all my best to the Order. If now your Representative has something to work
on, it’s because I built a Temple, almost all alone, in spite of her
attempts to drop it to the ground in the past, as you are pretty much aware of.
But, as it’s written, there’s a way back for every (wo)men, and I thought she
had changed. I was wrong. However
compare your words about the real test of fraternity with your acts. How to
accept them as a lesson if they come from the same person who says: "Under
the circumstances we have no alternative but to revoke your charter to initiate
to OTO, effective today (March 17)"? You,
who speak of fraternity, waited until I packed my things and flew to São Paulo,
leaving behind my 7 months pregnant wife and my 12 years old son and missing
two days of work and classes. After I wasted R$ 110,00 in a ticket ... After I
slept on the cold ground of a temple without a bed, just to keep alive the
spirit that I learned how to invoke with my initiator. Only then, when I was at
the party for the "The Holy Books", you sent me that marvellous
message. And you left MANY sisters and brothers without their initiations.
People that made plans. People that sacrificed things for an ideal. People that
travelled from far. People that now are knocking on the Order’s door searching
for something they already carry in their hearts. You, who speak of fraternity,
should and could have respected an act of fraternity. Back
to your lettter. You say: - "While regrettable, we of course respect
your will in this matter..." And: - "I came to like you during
your visit to the USA..." If this is true, why did you write, in the
same day, to Frater Piarus: - "...We have problems with Marcelo Santos,
and I hope he resigns soon..."? I found that email among his
initiation papers. Also, Marisol’s words about the emails you sent her
mentioning me do not confirm your present affirmations. Why lying, my brother?
WHY? On
to the worst part. You
say: "I have had many confusing and unsettling reports, including
remarks attributed to you that were hostile and even legally defamatory to
OTO..." How
years old are you, Bill? Would you believe if they told you they saw flying
elephants dancing tango around the palm-trees? Do you believe in everything
people say? C’mon! We’re men of action, and you’re not so ingenuous. Don’t come
to me with this bla-bla thing of confusing and unsettling reports. You are the
Caliph, goddammit! Don’t
you think it’s already time to judge the others for their work (and my work is
all the Caliphate has in Brasil up to this writing) and leave hearsay behind? Alas,
confusing and unsettling is too vague, as well as legally defamatory.
Can’t you be clearer? And, btw, is it too much difficult being impartial and
doing a previous little effort to aude altera partem? It’s oh so easy to
pull someone’s legs acting in the darkness and behind one’s back, you know. You
had the opportunity to look frankly into my eyes and will have it again sooner
or latter, I’m sure. If you were at least a little sensitive, you could read my
heart then, as I CAN read yours ... at any time. I just cannot read the
Caliphate’s heart anymore, as it seems to be a corpse without Life, nor Love,
nor Liberty, nor Light, and its banner seems be have something different from
the number 93 stamped on it. (Something
stops my illumination now, and makes me laugh. When I was in Sao Paulo, Frater
Piarus received a phone call from Rio. It was another brother, who wasted his
time and money just to say that - "Brother Marcelo is now in a secret
meeting with the leaders of the other thelemic organisations in Rio. They’re
planning on destroying the Caliphate". I was by P.’s side, and after
he hung off, we laughed and laughed. Did somebody report on my conspiracy to
you too? It’s insane. It sucks) Back
to your letter, I would like you to clarify if you’re threatening me when you
state that "unless I hear that they continue will take no action".
I call your attention to the words hear and action, and advise
you, if you permit me, to be very cautious when joining them. Now,
when I wrote the statement classified by you like "ego masqueraded with
humility", all that I meant was "hey, I am not speaking
anything on anything; and I don’t want anything but to keep on initiating new
brothers and sisters to OTO". You chose to pretend you did not
understand me. Now
I’m weary of those games you all love to play, day and night. I am looking for
spiritual growth and welfare. I am searching for peace of mind. That’s why I am
getting out of this lunacy. A
spiritually myopic brother tells me I am doing the wrong thing. According to
him, I should stay and pull Marisol’s legs. It’s funny that he’s a part of her
staff. He also says that Sol no Sul officers are celebrating my departure, for
now they’ll have the chance of meeting only for smoking good marijuana and travelling
to distant Brazilian cities and even abroad, doing initiations. You see: that’s
how the Caliphate OTO works. Nobody is interested in working seriously or doing
initiations for love, but only in exchange for good times at somebody else’s
expenses. On any plane, those "initiates" are searching for a
way to obtain personal profit from a pseudo-spiritual structure. For me,
there’s no spiritual growth therein, but a mad compensation for mundane
frustration. And, yes, the "staff" gets the profits. That explains
why one is always playing tricks on the other. They want to get "there". Apo Pantos Kakodaimonos! Be
it clear that, most of all, I am a thelemite. It does not really matter the
vessel, but the content. And, after all that happened and is still happening, I
can’t think of the Caliphate OTO as carrying a part of the content, the essence
that makes me rejoicing. I defended the Order and I made it strong in Brasil. For
payment, I found lies and treachery. Those lies won’t have my support anymore.
Pompous titles do not seduce me, and that’s why I’m feared by the jugglers. I
feel karmicaly bound to use my strength in showing my sisters and brothers in
Thelema what the Caliphate is all about, specially after receiving your last
email confirming my thoughts. Then, they shall chance to abide in this illusion
or no; it is no odds. Infinite Courage is my name. If
we come to fight, be it. Again, I hope you’ll let the A...A...
out of that. Otherwise,
I send my love to the pure children. Amor e’ a lei, amor sob vontade. Fraternally, Marcelo A C Santos Nothingman From: "Marcelo Santos"
To:
"Peter-R. Koenig" Subject:
amrita for my brain Date:
Thu, 9 Dec 1999 PRK:
now you have to tell me about the VII°, VIII° and IX° of the Rietti-fashion!! [Ordo
Templi Orientis Foundation] MACS:
Ridiculous!!! VII°
- bla-bla: how important it is to be fair and just with your brothers etc. VIII°
- Three officers. After wasting three hours reading the previous rituals (the
candidate is forbidden to speak during this time), the C. is taken to the
temple. A bla-bla follows. Then,
one of the officers perform the preaching of the Mass of the Phoenix while
masturbating. He ejaculates upon the cakes upon ther altar and distributes the
disgusting thing between the candidates, telling them to eat it. (Of course, I
only pretended I was chewing, and threw that piece of cake under the chair I
was sat upon. The brazilian king did the very same). After
that, the candidates are separated: women go to a place in the temple; men to
another. Women
hear a bla-bla about the ''rite of stella maris'', something about
female masturbation. Men
hear ''Nuptiis Secretis...''. Another masturbation and ejaculation and
distribution of disgusting melted pieces of cake follows. Finis. IX°
- The same cerimony of Minerval, including the same words and signs etc, but
with the three I°-III° officers: S., E., and W. In the end, Saladin says ''The
journey never ends'' or something like. Then, Saladin tells the W. to
perform the Star Ruby. After
that, Saladin and Emir perform the Star Saphire. S. and E. copulate. E.
collects the moisture of sperm and female fluids from within her vagina and
distributes between the candidates. Finis. X° -
Firstly, the to-be-king ''receives'' the ''highest M-M national
degree'', while holding the penis of the initiator with his right hand.
Then he's made an ''OTO king'' (hahaha). Then
the king receives Grimorium Sanctissimum as it was the X°
instruction and is instructed to perform it as soon as he gets back to his
country!!! PRK:
who wrote those rituals?! MACS:
The british king and David Rietti did. The others were copied from YOUR
book [How To Make Your Own McOTO] (I saw it with my very eyes). From:
"Marcelo Santos" To:
koenig @ cyberlink.ch Subject:
alt.magick Date:
Fri, 31 Dec 1999 Cari Fratres et Sorores
in Legis Lucis, Amore, Vita et Libertatis: Do
what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law. I
have been living the Law of Thelema for about twelve years. Within this time, I
have been member - and very often - representative of some organizations in my
Country (Brasil). It
is my style to give back twice the respect my superiors have twards me. And,
most of all, I do not tolerate lies. As
some of you probably know, I was the first representative of the so called Caliphate
OTO in Brasil, and - believe me - I had many unpleasent experiences within that
organization, what took me to resign my membership and ''status'' in the
beginning of 1999 e.v. In
march of the same year, I contacted the so-called OTO Foundation, a
group founded in Manchester, UK, which claimed to carry a lineage from the
Fraternitas Saturni. That group invited me to take the Xº for Brasil, but I
kindly rejected such an invitation, pointing somebody else to fulfill that
office. At
the end of October, I and that man took the intermediary and high
degrees of the OTO-F, he being made the Xº. I
was somehow upset when I saw that the OTO-F still used the same rituals as the
Caliphate. Yet, they devised new rituals for the sub-degrees and the high
degrees, all of them very very weak, reflecting their lack of imagination and
their necessity to supply their sexual frustration. My impressions on those
rituals may follow in oncoming e-mails, at any of yours request. Back
to Brasil, I told that man (who used to call me a friend) that I had to
myself that the OTOF was a fake - at least from the historical point of view,
after all: 1 -
It was founded by somebody who claims to hold the 18º FS, a statement
contradicted by the current Grand Master of the Ordo Saturni [Dieter Heikaus] and by at least two past
Grand Masters of the FS; 2 -
It is based on an allegued agreement between the Swiss King of the OTO [H.J.
Metzger] and the first Grand Master of the F.S. [Eugen Grosche]. However, this
agreement is 99,99% a fairy tale. Sufice it to remember that the Swiss King of
the OTO was expelled from the F.S. by the Grand Master Gregorius in September
1953. In any case, a national king had no authority to do such agreements
without the permission of the OHO (at that time, Frater Saturnus [Karl
Germer]); 3 -
It is currently leaded by two persons that were expelled from the Caliphate OTO
when the most advanced of them held only a sub-degree between the Vº and the
VIº. A
few days later, based on void allegations, the brazilian Xº of the OTOF tried
to expel me. I appealed and had the expulsion revoked. However, as it is not my
Will to waste my time, I resigned my membership in that organization in
23.11.99 e.v. A
few days before my resignation, I came to know that the founder of the OTO-F
was spreading false rumors about the past Grand Master of the FS, Frater
Jananda [Walter Jantschik], nowadays the head of the Ordo Baphometis, an
organization that I gladly represent in Rio de Janeiro. I wrote to the OTOF
founder (Frater U.D./Scorpio [Ralf Tegtmeier]) and received a bad humored
letter as response, what shew his total lack of emotional control. He even
threatened me because of my contact with G.M. Jananda, what lead me to write
him a legal letter, which I reproduce in the following e-mail. Well,
I think I've already said too much for a letter of introduction. Glad to be
here. Love
is the law, love under will. Dom Marcelo A. C. Santos
33º 90º 95º IXº Frater Iskuros / Tenebras
Luciferrum
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